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Four September conferences.
Four weekends when Adrian kissed me goodbye at Logan International Airport and promised to bring me something beautiful from Italy.
Four times he returned smelling like cedar cologne, sea salt, and a perfume I did not own.
Four times I ignored the small voice inside me because love had taught me to feel ashamed of suspicion.
I remembered the gifts.
The first year, he brought me a ceramic lemon bowl.
The second year, a silk scarf the color of the Mediterranean.
The third year, a gold pendant shaped like a compass.
The fourth year, an antique silver picture frame.
He told me he saw each gift and immediately thought of me.
What he did not tell me was that another woman had helped him choose them.
What he did not tell me was that he had stayed in the same hotel suite with her.
What he did not tell me was that every conference itinerary he sent me had been manufactured inside his Boston office.
What he did not tell me was that the woman in the photographs had never truly been his ex.
Her name was Vanessa Shaw.
I knew that because Adrian had told me about her on our third date.
We were sitting inside a small Italian restaurant in the North End, sharing tiramisu while snow collected along Hanover Street.
“Vanessa and I were young,” he had said. “It burned hot and ended badly.”
“How badly?”
“She wanted a life I couldn’t give her.”
“What kind of life?”
“Money. Status. Access. She loved doors more than she loved the people who opened them.”
He had smiled then and reached across the table for my hand.
“You’re different.
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