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“I know.”

“You left at 7:30 wearing a tie.”

“I know.”

“Where did you go?”

“Library. Coffee shop. Sometimes job interviews.”

I stared at him.

“You have been unemployed for three months?”

“Almost four.”

My hands went cold.

“Every morning you get dressed.”

“I know.”

“You pack lunch.”

“I know.”

“You complain about traffic when you get home.”

His voice dropped.

“I know.”

The black fibers fell from my hand onto the driveway.

Suddenly, the possible affair seemed almost simple.

An affair had rules in my imagination.

Anger.

Betrayal.

Someone else.

This was stranger.

He had been performing our normal life every morning.

“Why didn’t you tell me?”

“I thought I’d find something quickly.”

“For four months?”

“At first, I thought two weeks.”

“And when two weeks became two months?”

“I kept thinking the next interview would work.”

“Ben.”

“I was ashamed.”

I looked at him.

“We have a mortgage.”

“I know.”

“We have Sophie.”

“I know.”

“We have bills.”

“I handled them.”

That sentence scared me.

“How?”

He went silent.

I felt something inside me tighten.

“How did you handle the bills?”

“Can we take Sophie to school first?”

“No.”

“Laura—”

“How?”

He looked toward the house.

Then back at me.

“I used savings.”