The search lasted for days. Ryan’s best friend Paul helped organize everything and kept saying, “Anna, you need to accept it. They drowned.”
Their life jackets were still inside.
The explanation came quickly: a sudden current, a rough shift in the water, maybe the boat tipped.
The lake took them. That was the line everyone settled on.
But their bodies never came back. And that was the piece I could never make myself live with.
When Ryan kissed me that morning, calm as ever, he didn’t sound like a man about to take reckless chances on the water. He sounded like a husband and father on an ordinary summer morning, and ordinary is the cruelest disguise trouble ever wears.
***
For a long time, I drove to the lake after dropping Lily at school.
I’d sit with both hands on the wheel and stare at the water as if staring hard enough might force it to answer me. Once, after nearly a year of doing that, I got out and shouted all three names into the wind until my throat burned.
The lake took them.
Eventually, I stopped going, not because I’d made peace, but because the place itself had started to feel cruel.
I took down the framed lake photos because I couldn’t keep turning a corner and seeing sunlit versions of the three people I’d never been allowed to say goodbye to properly.
Meanwhile, life kept moving, even when I felt stuck in the same place.
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